Sudden Realization

I just realized something.I am incredibly lazy.So much that, the moment things start getting rough, I start thinking up of silly excuses to escape.I had for a long time refused to comply with the Indian engineering curriculum, only because they (according to me) employ antiquated teaching methods and syllabus.Similarily when I started working as a lab assistant I would dread at the idea of having to do all the work in front of me.I decided I was not meant to be an engineer, and my true calling lay in the land of moving pictures.The thing is I am just afraid of failure.I am also afraid of confrontation.I guess the only good thing about all this is that I know what my problems are.